Aug 30

Almost the last days of summer till in a few days classes starts and everything is again the same routine. So for "celebration" of another mother's birthday dinner, my auntie wanted to treat her to dinner. Therefore, we went for sushi on my Emily's suggestion. What I thought was worthwhile blogging is when we were finish eating but still waiting for the "other" bill to be processed, I walked where my brother was and got a candy. There was a table of three, this cute baby with his parents. The little boy had the mohawk like haircut Emily mentioned earlier. As I was walking to Huy, this little boy turned his head in a angle I myself cannot reach, and continue to stare at me. At first I thought it was really cute, I always seem able to hold some attention from to a lot of babies. But maybe it was because of the bright yellow sweater I was wearing but still it was still so cute and flattering!! ^^. I told Huy, and as usual he didn't say much but kept looking. All I could like always is just snicker and give a half smile. After a moment his parents caught him and told him not to be rude but I thought it was still very cure. After his parents said that, he went back but then did the same position staring. At last we had to leave and thats proably the last time I will see that little boy but his position just warms my heart. I wished that I could have applied the same job May have this summer, I think I could have lost some weight and at the same time have loads of fun. Too bad, maybe next next summer.

Action

Recently, I need to review the life I am leading. Instead of leading a slothic life I should really step out and do something. For instance, I feel very negative over my body type issue. I know I am not overweight or underweight. But I just always feel very bad over the way my body looks. I know that maybe every girl in the world has some issue over their body, and the criticisms never seem to stop from someone but more importantly oneself. I just feel if I feel so bad about it, I should have some courage in myself to change it. Getting tone is not hard, just that it will take some time. The biggest problem with me is impatience. I expect results like that! and while I know that it cannot be rushed, I give up to quickly to stick by the plan. I know this habit of mine must change if I am to succeed. Whethter its just over my body image or something else bigger than girl issues, I know that fixing this habit will only better me in the future. So I hope by putting this into text that in the year 2009 I will FINALLY, FINALLY not just say useless words but put it into useful action. So this summer I will actually be happy for the proable vacations I expect to take. Oh! I would love to look fashionable in a dress and not have a 3 month old bulging at the tummy or have ugly thighs! or even unbearalbe arms. I REALLY REALLY WANT A CHANGE! I really want myself to succeed. I know the only thing hindering me and holding me from change is not anybody fault but myself. Years before I wanted this change, but because of my procrastination I know that is what kept me from reaching my goal to this day. Well I'm tired of it. As the new school year comes, I will actually make it a necessary requirement to execercise and tone at least 4 times the week, and hopefully in a few months I will see the results I always dream of.