Sept 7, 2008

It's been some time since I have been writing, mostly due to the beginning of classes again and worry. The first day I must say I was overwhelmed and that follow to the second day. The first day: JAPANESE 301. Not only was there many people I knew in that class but I am kinda afraid since there is only one midterm instead of two. That means I only have one chance to make it! History class, although I know I will like but man! that teacher I can barely hear what he is saying! Not only is he far from us, he does not have a mike or anything and to make matters worse, he mumbles!!!!!! GOD! I just hope that is just a one time thing...but something tells me it isn't. I'm pretty sure that the whole semester my ears need to be wide awake for this class. The second day: an Q&A session with the business adviser, that Sarah lady that I have email before. I just felt that she was rushing me and wanted to get it over quickly, and she kinda push me to get an degree then to apply for an after-degree, like what Vanessa (which by the way I met while lining in line for book return) is doing right now. But the thing is, that will definitely take me 6 years, and at my rate (not enough credits for a degree anyways-120 credits) 7+ years to complete. So the best idea is to get into business this year. And for 2 hard years to get a business degree. The love hate relationship I have with getting into business is that I know I can get in, but I doubt myself wayyy to much! and I think I slack off too much, or put it off thinking that I can make it up. But the thing is that everything counts! You need to get the highest mark in every assignment, every test so those marks do not drag you down. I know that I doubt myself too much. I just know that once I get accepted into that faculty I can let go some of that doubt.
So from here on out I make an oath to myself. This year when I apply into business I WILL get IN! I must achieve a 3.5-3.3 average. Mommy makes a very good point: that I don't study hard enough or at effective because if others could make those marks so can I. I know she has very hopes for me and I soo don't want to dissapoint her since she and daddy works so hard for us. I really want to be strong and earn the bread for the family one day. I know as the days past they are getting older and hurting physically more, I just want they have some rest. At this rate, I have no idea what age they will retire at! It's just so sad. I wish I could provided them with more. So this year, study ahead, review before and after, particpate more in japanese class! And really push your limit! I really need this! I cannot to lose another year! I have no back up plan! LOL. So there is only one plan! PLAN A!
Reasons to get in:
Finally have direction!
Do not have to worry what to do next.
Not wasting another year.
Still be young when I graduate.
(If I make enough money) can go to paris and tokyo!
LOL.

I REALLY HOPE/WISH/PLAN/WILL! GET INTO THE FACULTY OF BUSINESS OR DIE TRYING. YOU MUST/NEED/WILL GET A GPA OF 3.3 AND ABOVE! NOTHING LESS IS ACCEPTABLE! YOU UNDERSTAND?