Things that I desired

My God its like this drama "美男이서네요" or " You're Beautiful" is bringing the school girl out of me again. All I want to do is buy, buy their merchandise! LOL. Hopefully by posting them up I can try to get them out of my system...Here's hoping!

The Samsung Corby S3650

OR...

The Samsung Corby Pro S5310

Basically the same as above but with a slide out RED QWERTY keyboard.....CHOICES!!

A PINK Fuji Instax!!! so kawaii!! ^^



"Pig Rabbit" Nose of a pig and body of a rabbit...hehe...its so CUTE!!

Places to get them: www.yesasia.com, www.lightintheboc.com, www.photojojo.com, www.ebay.com--> Obviously...

But I'm hoping to find that camera in Vegas when I'm there this Saturday! The rest...we'll seE?

Its has been months since I have posted anything up! But my summer was great. I went backpacking through Europe! Started school now in the travel program and its all going along great! I hope to do many many more trips.


I went to much much more places...but I'm too lazy to upload most of them =P

MADRID, SPAIN

1st NIGHT:

I forgot to write anything for our first night, but we arrived in Madrid like around 3 and got to our hostel around 4 or 5 pm. Man...my backpack was HUGE!! like on the side....it had a mind of its own...haha, and I got laughed. The airport had the metro connecting and we quickly got to our hostel. Madrid´s so nice! I became the camera whore..haha. It´s so pretty and old and nice. We arrived there on a sunday, so everything was closed. But once we got to our hostel and got everything settled down, I went for a shower...sigh* It felt good, after the sweat that accumulated from the damn backpack...haha. We went exploring, and it was quite windy but nice. We went in a circle around the neighborhood of the hostel. I swear, EVERYWHERE has graffiti on it. ALL the stores closing doors thingy has at least something on it. It´s cool. Then we went to a metro place, don´t know how to spell its name, but the space beside it, there was some like of muslim gathering. There was music and dancing, but I couldn´t see since there was so many tall people in front of me...haha. Then we walked some more, I saw a couple making out...heavily..hehe. We walked more and took stupid pictures and then we got hungry. Sadly to report that the first meal we had in Madrid was nothing of local cuisine. We walked into this Indian/Hindu street, there was many restaurants and we where tired of looking for a spanish restaurant so we went into that one. All three dishes were chicken, two were curry, once spicy yet sweet and the other normal. It was really good and fulling. After that we decided to return to the hostel. We also met the first of many of our dorm-mates. Her name was Claire and from the US. She gave us some pretty good tips.

2nd Day:
We woke up around 8 am today. Toke a shower and then went for breakfast downstairs. Then we decided to go to the local train station: Atocha. It was grand, not really THAT pretty but still pretty neat. We got our passes validated and then went to check out the famous Museo Reina Sofía.Ugh, forgot my student card there so had to pay regular price. T.T. Man, when we went it there was this sick but cool sculpture two man hanging on the ceiling by there tongues or something and they moved. The museum: I did not understand it all. There was paintings that were like they were drawed by kids, like sketches. Also, there was some so with some much cleavage...haha. We saw groups of little spanish kids and they were so cute!! We also saw Picasso´s most famous painting the Guernica. When I first looked at it, no freaking idea what it was supposed to mean, just thought it was kind of ugly, and there was animals and humans, an eyeball with its pupil as a light bulb. Later by wikipeding it I found out its a painting of a bombing of the town Guernica during the Spanish Civil War by German bombers. The museum also had these odd-looking rock sculptures of people.There legs were like a round ball...it was funny. oh, also there was this room of some many men, I swear they looked chinese! with there small eyes. haha. Too bad I couldn't´t take a picture to show they didn´t allow it. Next we got some food and went to Madrid´s Park. It was huge and pretty and green and trees in full bloom. Compared that to Edmonton, we sure are slow. haha.

After our 5 hour nap, we woke up around 9ish, and it took us about an hour to get out the door. So we were heading to the Puerta del Sol when before the metro station I spotted a convenience store. The owners inside were Chinese! We walked around and found the big bottles of water. This chinese lady comes up to us and ask if we were Chinese, so then I was forced to converse in my poor chinese. But I must, I can soo can by with my chinese...hehe, and she said my chinese was good...don't know to much about that. But her chinese wasn't really mainland, more taiwan, dunno. Then we headed to the square. It was huge, but there was some construction going on so we could see the middle square...shame. We actually found a spanish restaurant this time: TapasBar. It was red, modern and a waiter that can speak english!! hehe. We ordered Estrella beer, which is a local beer. Raeanna got Paella Mediterrane, rice with seafood and sauce, Marvin got chicken with vegetables(Pechuga la planc) , and I got Duck meat and citrus fruits (Magret de Plato). It was good. ^_^. We finished dinner around 11:30, and decided to walk a bit and reach Plaza Mayor, it was this huge square and at night, there was a few people. Two men have tried persistently to try to sell some flowers to us which cost 1€ each! Later chilling around the square, we headed back home. <3

So for our last day in Madrid, we first went to this Egyptian Temple: Templo de Debod kinda far from the city's center. But the temple was cool, it was part of this huge park. The temple itself was ancient, like from the 4th century or something, and for me the first time I saw some Egyptian hieroglyphics and that was cool, although it was still kinda hard to see. After that we went back to this square called Plaza de España, there was this huge fountain thing in the middel, and also another small but pretty one. Not far from the square we decided to do some shopping along Gran Via. This big street that had many stores. We went to some, don't remember the names, but for lunch we had KFC. Because Marvin and Raeanna said that the MacDonald beside smell like ass, and it did!!! Can't believe there was still people that were eating there..@_@. But our KFC meal..delicious and only 2.50 Euros. Not bad for a meal I must say. Later we made our way again the Puerta del Sol and the Plaza Mayor just to see the place in daylight, and it was much more alive in the day. Especially in the Plaza, there were acts and people laying on the floor, birds and sun! We bought some local souvniers and then decided to rest for a bit at the square.
After some rest, we headed back to the big park and decided to check the crystal museum and rose garden before going the Prado. We saw the museum, and I was not entirely impressed. The place was going through renovations and thus, there was nothing in there to see! Then we TRIED to move on to the rose garden, unfortunately for us, Marvin let us on the wrong way and we went west instead of south. HA! We never made it to the rose garden, we all were too tired. After another break to enjoy the park, then walked out of the park to go to the Prado. But before we went to the Prado, which let people in for free: tuesdays from 6-9, we went around and took pictures outside. There was this huge ass church, I went in while Raeanna and Marvin chill outside. The Church inside was so pretty! @_@. I felt I had to cross after entering this place. Man, this place was old school, so much symbols, so much icons, so much of Jesus. LOL. It as so grand for a church. The alter was crazy and awesome. After my exploring, we went down the street to find the Communications Palace. Man that place was huge, and so over just for a post office that wasn't even open..haha. The place was around the circle lane of traffic, and in the middle was also a landmark of Madrid, the Cibeles fountain which was very cool.
After that, it was time for the Prado! We weren't allowed any pictures in the museum, and we're under a tight schedule to see as much as possible before closing time. The museum was so cool. It was simple, and the paintings all had a border and below telling the artist name and date.Mostly the paintings were of religious themes or portraits of the royal family of the past. I saw Las Meninas by Velázquez and both the cloth and nude Maja by Goya. Both of these paintings were huge and cool to see in person. There also was alot and I mean alot of paintings of Jesus and his crucifixion, it was cool and eerly at the same time. There was these paintings with three panels with paradise: Adam and Eve, in the middle; an earthly paradise and hell. We pretty much went through the whole museum and most of the rooms and saw the paintings at least one second each? lol. By the end, all I know is that my feet and legs were dying! haha.

(to be continued...too tired and hungry...>.<)

After the visit to the Prado, we decided to have Micky D's for dinner. At 1 Euro per item, it was the cheapest meal we can have. I had a Chicken sandwich thing. I was expected the same as in Canada but this one, it's sauce was spicy and different. I also had a salad, it was good. ^_^. We then headed back to the hostel to pack. In the end, we didn't pack. Me and Raeanna both were very tired, and we would pack in the morning.

real life

Shit.
Who knew that real life can hit so close to home.
I always thought we would be OK. But life just had to step on.
Now whatever I do, there is not way to help keep the water from overflowing
because there is already cracks in the wall.
How am I suppose to help the family?
When I'm going on this big spurge of at rip which I don't even money to afford myself!
Shit.

When I saw that paper tonight, I prayed it was a stupid joke.
but it said terminated.
What are they to do?
I thought he losing a job last last summer was a shock enough,
but now..SHIT! How will they keep up?
I feel so much guilt and so helpless knowing that what money
I can make I can't even give to them because I going on this expensive trip.
I feel like a selfish brat.
All the worries and stress and effort and time spent on this big trip is just
brought by endless guilt now knowing that
I should be helping more at home.
I don't even know if bro knows, should I tell him?
What can he do?
Sometimes I just wish we win the lottery already.
Or somehow we come to this huge pile of cash.
Because I know I not going to meet this person to take care all of my troubles.
My life is not a TW drama.

But when can I do? He's sick and she has all the responsibilities of the family to worry about.

I just sorry, Mom and Dad. I can't do anything.

1st Blog in months!

In the past, everything was so simple. There was nothing to hide from.Nothing to run from, nothing to cry over.Now, Everything has changed.Why?Why does troubles grow as days pass by?Why does fear grows stronger when the years pass on?Is there no end.Why has life got so complicated?There is drama everywhere. Gossip at every corner, and bs all around.Why do I care so much?Why can't I just let go and let others do their own thing.Am I an enabler or just a crybaby?Maybe I'm both.
Why is this world so cruel to me and others.We all make mistakes, why is everything so serious and stupid?I worry over if I'm a good:friend,sister,daughter,cousin,believer,studentperson, it never ends.
As tears fall down my face, It doesn't stop but falls down harder.I know there is more I can do for everyone. But I feel so selfish for always putting me first.Why is that?
My room is cold and messy and I want to clear the clutter in my room and in my mind. But the mind never stops just like how I can't stop from caring and giving a shit for others.Others might call me meddling and tell me to stop being nosy and just leave tell be.But how can I help if I don't know the whole story?Maybe they don't need help from me? Or don't think I am useful. ButEven if others need me there to listen, I can be there for them.I lost enough friends to put in that effort. I don't want to lose more people that I let into my world just to let them slip away as tunes goes by. But if that time was to come, I would fight for it before I give up.
But some just don't seem to understand. And continue to judge.I don't want the people I know and love to be judge and step on by others.That's not what a human being should do in life.I'm far from perfect,there is some much of me that can be improved,and when others judge me and the people I know,I can't accept that.It's not in me to just let it pass by, I want to, no, have to stick up for them. Even though the odds are against me,I want to say something,
As time passes by, why is that life doesn't become easier. That the guidebook to life is an easier book to read.I feel cold founding out the truth isn't what I wanted it to be.And so scared of others. I don't want to judge them or find out they are not what they appear to be.I shudder at that.I don't want any harm upon others,but hope they cna find what can make they happy and be a good person in this life we all share. But Its not always what I want it to be.
Does the tears that fall from my eyes even do anything. I would think by this time in my life I have shed enough tears in a lifetime. ButNo it is not.I feel like Alice, that my tears are enough to fill a room, but it is not strong enough to break the walls down. Instead, its so much that I find myself drowning,gasping for some air,but its not enough.I never thought that life was that complicated. Now things are different.School.Work. And more work.Friends.Family.It doesn't ends. However I would not call it suffering.I suffer because I let myself. But its not ongoing.It comes and go,I would not always welcome it to my life,but it there to let you knowthat you alive,that you live,that we are all human.We are not gods. Nor saints.Nor demons.But humans.Humans with emotions,troubles,grief,stress,happiness,stupidness,laughter,and much more.
Sometimes I would think of all the hate we have in this world.Over faith,Over opposing views,Over love,Over our view of beauty,Over race,Over gender,Over sexual orientation.It makes me sick.It makes worry about the the stupid human race.It makes cry at night.It makes me fell like shit when I participate.I hate hate.I also really hate the word "hate" I such an awful word. I try not to use it.
It doesn't seem to get easier as time passers on.It never does. That one more law in life.Others are not always nice and genuine and there for you. There is so many people in the world,and there is just so many you meet in your lifetime, why not let them in and learn to accept and appreciate them instead of judging them and causing drama.Even though some deserves it,try to give them the benefit of the doubt.That all I can ask for.I just want my worries to diminish,stop worrying so much over little times.If there id something bugging you, let it out.Don't keep it inside, or you'll never find an answer.